I decided to do a modified version of the spread you gave for Leo, just for time's sake. Thoth Tarot.
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1. Card that best describes me currently -
8 of Cups (first decan of Pisces, a decan ruled by Saturn)
3. Why am I afraid to show others my "true self" -
Queen of Swords (first 2 decans Libra, last decan Virgo)
4. How can I begin to accept my flaws/imperfections -
Prince of Swords (first 2 decans of Aquarius, last decan Capricorn)
I've got some earth in there with my water and air, but no fire, Leo or the Sun to point to the current sign for this thread.
8 of Cups makes sense for the sort of holding pattern and stressed torpor waiting for the major hospital trip coming up. I feel like I'm fine, but objectively I see where I'm doing a lot of nothing that takes my mind off of things. Not terrible for the week to distract myself from my tendency to worry. There's weight from Saturn, and really it's sort of the antithesis of Leo, which I only mention because of the theme we've got going. This is a mutable sign, but the beginning of it; something transitory that's just getting started is the medical stuff.
The Queen of Swords' decans correspond to 2S Peace, 3S sorrow, and her shadow (or at least where she's literally out of her element), 10 of Disks Wealth. Her characteristics point to me being 'afraid to show my true self' because it tends to isolate me, ironically. You know how you can sometimes show what's really important to you and find that you're the only one in the room that feels that way? Being in a crowd can be lonelier than being alone. And also I have some mild social anxiety issues, especially around strangers. I work to not let that limit me, but I'm far more comfortable with my husband where I can say whatever I feel and don't worry at all.
I look at this Queen's shadow of Wealth less in terms of money specifically, and more in terms of anxiety about losing what I have.
The Prince of Swords is my significator when I use one, and corresponds the decan of my sun sign, so it's really on the nose to have it in the position of accepting myself. I also associate the Princes with the HGA. I can be a bit Queen of Swords critical of myself (who isn't) and this points toward looking at how I am, rather than nitpicking or dwelling on how I think I 'should be'. W
hat if you're ok just as you are? Someone said that to me at a retreat once, and it had a much bigger impact than I expected. Hit me like a brick.
A cool and damp reading of greens and blues (on a rainy winter's day here). Not Leo-like at all. But being my ascendant, Leo is more a public face. This spread includes instead both my sun sign, and in a roundabout way my earthy moon sign, so it's digging past the shell into my private life. The draw gets a bit warmer with the gold on the Prince of Swords, the way forward.